Yep, the title is quite obvious what this article is all about. At one point or another, you had your heart broken once. There are some who had a few times. It’s painful. It becomes a vicious cycle, You put your trust on someone and get your heart broken. You move on. Then here comes a better person you find worthy of your trust and boom, breaks your heart again. And it goes on and on and on until you figure out the things you can no longer tolerate. Consequently, a wall of defense mechanism starts to build up as you hop from one breakup to another. Catastrophic, you might say, but it happens.
Eventually you get numb. You may still find someone interesting, someone worth a try, someone who would look past all the broken pieces and make you whole again. That’s what they thought, I’d say. You would always have the same thoughts in your head and falling in love is a choice you make everyday. Doubts, fears, and patterns are very visible. 
I have seen lots of betrayal and cheating from where I came from. The patterns of communication and behaviour are quite easy to notice. Only the first 1-2 years of a relationship are interesting and then everything becomes a habit. Less interesting. moreso when you are living together. You would be the last person to know about stuff but people around you would know a lot about domestic concerns and how annoying you can be. How you can ruin someone’s day by not being able to prepare breakfast and etc. With technologies these days, words can spread faster than light. Words about you can cross to another state or country in just so little time.
Falling in love is a choice you make everday. Like a mantra, that’s part of my daily routines too.
When to say it’s time to move on? How to figure out you’ve had enough and that it’s time to go on on your own? Would you leave and start the vicious cycle again or stay and be in constant battle with your own thoughts?
The downside of having been broken a few times is that failed relationships dont scare you anymore. You know how to find your way when things fall apart. And that you find solace being lost in your thoughts.
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